well...guess i am going to fail my o level this year man..

54 points i guess....

i cannot focus on studies this few weeks...
all i am doing is play play play and play...
why!?...

trying to get you off my mind..
kept thinking when can see each other everyday...

test are coming...i have not studied..

homeork i dun have the mood to do..

even if i do..

at most 1 qns...then i f*** care alr...

i dunno...

i just start to feel that its a waste of my time to love you now..

cos...i dun get anything...

i have been giving giving giving..

all you know how to do is...

look for you at night...

look for you later...

wadeva...

i ask you to do something..

you dun like...

you dun wan to do...

then i have to comply?...

wads this?...

forget it..

have you ever tht of doing something for me?.....

ITS REALLY A WASTE OF MY TIME...

good....

it seems my plan for you to leave me seemed successful..

its not i dun love you anymore...

i just want you to be happy as you were before...
sry for making you not happy for the past 1 year..

been stressed out this year..

NCC
SLC
STUDIES
BGR
everyday in sch till 4 plus 5 plus..or rather 7...

reach home...
cant even look for someone to tell my problems at work..

have to act up as if nth happen every night..

just like ytd...
during PE...
everyone was having games...

i just wanted to relief all my thoughts..
i just sprint 1 whole round ard the sch..
but when sprinting..
my mind is all abt..you..you and you..

just thinking if you will be better without me?..
better with someone else?..
better with your family members?..

cos after you been with me..
you have not been very close with your family...
especially your mum...

i....just dun wan you to carry on like that..
after i told everything to guan hua ytd...
i realised how much you loved me..
but...sorry...

i have to break your heart...
hope you will find another person who you love
and someone who love you more than i love you..

when the way you replied my sms today...i know..
you are mentally prepared alr..

i just wanna say..

for the very last time..

I LOVE YOU.......

its getting nearer and nearer each day...
today's the 12th alr..its just 2 days to go...
i really dun wan to wait for another year...
but i guess..its really unavoidable...

so i am counting down alr..its 367 days to 2010 valentine...

as we all can see...
today is 10th of feb..i tht i could hold out for another 4 days..just to see you..but sry...i dun think i can do it..

i think..i have to break the promise i gave you...

ever since last year..

i been looking forward to this year's valentine..everyone who knows me knows it..

i have been going ard chanting..14 FEB 14 FEB 14 FEB.....i always wanted celebrate valentine's with you..

i even made the effort to get your present..but...i guess now...its of no use...

been facing obstacle after obstacle..

firsly is your mum not letting us together..
then...she dun allow us to meet as often...
then she sets a curfew time which is even shorter than before..
next..she dun allow use to even hug one another..
then she dun allow us to go out at night...
next she say nasty things abt me...
then she dun allow you to come to my place...

and i dunno wad she will still do next?...not even letting us get married?..unless its someone she trust?..
forget it...

i'm sorry for doing this..but...
i'm sorry...
even after being together nearly a year..
you dun talk as much as you were with frens..
you dun even call me by my name or calling me something else like dear or something..
you only do all this through sms..i dunno wads holding you bck...

shy?...scared?..i dunno...
tried my best to do everything i can..
my mum always told me not to go steady with you..still..i did it..
i quarrelled with my family over you...
and this is the first time i cried so badly...
i dunno...

i just hope...
things can be better...
i dunno wad to do alr...

i guess...its time for us both to make a decision alr...

but still..I LOVE YOU..
but loving someone doesnt mean you nid them beside you...
as long as the person you love is happy...
you shld give them the best blessings...



wishing you good luck on finding someone else...


you asked me to remember the happy things?...

do i even have happy things to remeber?....