busy with work these few days....
even though this matter has been bugging me for these 3 days..
its finally over...
as i said..
over...
i wont be looking for another concert anymore..
not as in the concert was not good..
it was perfect..
everyone there had put in lots of effort to practise and rehearsed


why i wont wan to look forward for another concert is because..
when i see ppl with their girlfrens and were having fun...
it made me envious of them..
they have a girlfren..
i have too...
but...
you werent with me....
why?...
coz of another word...
PARENTS....

yet again...
since the holidays..
i nvr had a proper time or chance to meet you properly...
i dunno wad the hell they are thinking...
i dunno wad to do to please them...
i tried wadever i could alr..
i have to give in to their curfew time..
we had to suffer for the time we waited to meet..
all they had to say is..NO...

A simply and stupid word dampen our day..
or i should say the whole week just like that...
wad has your outing with your frens got to do with me meeting you!?..
why must it be my turn to go out with you in the night for just once being rejected while the others are not rejected and got away with just scolding!?...
isnt unfair!?...

i had enough of all these madness alr...
pls..someone..

tell me wad to do..
i am out of ways and means....
anybody...just...

tell me...

Disappointed.....
utterly disappointed...
your post for these few days...
its really very disappointing..
all you care..its abt how you feel..
wad you think..
and wadeva promises i made..

but...you had never consider how i feel..
you only care..abt why i had changed...
why i ignored you..

all i want...
is you...
sparing a thought for me...

whenever i stop replying..you tht i was ignoring you..

when i start to be cold..
you tht i dun love you..

especially when you said i dun love you alr..
i alr know..
you alr had the thinking that i will change my feeling towards you..
the trust you had in me...
was alr...
gone...

now...
i dunno wad am i suppose to do with this relationship...

end it?..
or continue it?...

tell me...

back to square 1....after 6 days of wait..which is 144 hrs of waiting...i dun get wad i waited for..and i realised its you who promised your parents that you wont be going out this sunday...oh well..its not the first time this happens..i guess...all i have to do..is to get used to it....but now..i have learnt my lesson..and i wont be looking forward to sundays anymore.......

stupid day yet again...maybe coz i dun feel really very happy today..well..lets get started...
woke up in the morning again...with phone call frm mr tuang..asking me and dylan to make it to the air base if possible..then meeting dylan at farrer park station but met him at the train..so yea..went to the clinic for medical check-up..wasted time there..well..had fun with dylan..coz we crapped..saying if the doctor is hot and sexy..lol..then..^^.if not..we will start escaping frm the room as soon as we saw the doctor coz the doc is a female....then later took cab to air base..wasted like $15..=.=...damn it...then at the ar base..wasted time there again..sian..then went to macs for the new MEGA MACS..=.=..but then..haix.mouth too small.,.. for the big mac one...eat till wan die...




i dunno wad had got into you..i know its not easy to stop...but when you stopped...
its only for awhile..and then..you started crying again...and all the effort i made..gone down the drain..and bck to square 1..you said you will try and wait tilll they day comes...i dun really look forward to the day..coz...i know it will be long before that happens..well..maybe you might be better off with your frens..spend more time with them then..hope you have fun...

泪水 将我淹没 到底谁该难过
究竟 是谁放掉 这段感情
我才终于明白 办不到的承诺
就成了枷锁
现实中幸福永远缺货
请告诉她 我不爱他
笑著难过 自我惩罚
想终止这一切挣扎
横了心 说真心谎话
别告诉她 我还想她
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默 代替所有回答
我不爱 我不痛 我不懂 我的心
早已掏空 真心话 言不由衷
别告诉她 我还想她
就让沉默 代替所有回答

Well...found time to blog..been going bck to schs...almost every single day...but with the excos..its different..we had fun man!...everytime we gather to do proposal..play yimte is always more than work time...lol...we even had a SLC soccer league..and can you believe it..GABRIEL HENG IS THE TOP SCORER with 7 goals..lol...but most impt is we had fun...although the forfeit sucks...being very busy today...went bck for OBS meeting at 9am..stupid foo yong howe say the medical check-up like so easy..in the end...nid alot of documents..make me have to skip a day of attachment...well..quite good also.can have 1 day of rest...well..went to the clinic near scott's place..went with donny dylan and scott..waited for like 15 mins then tell us nid health booklet..zzz..have to go over tmr..then went to eat..and we talked loads of crap...then went bck to sch..played soccer half naked!..and in the rain...but the feeling is quite good..haha...
after that slog like crazy..went bck at ard 5 plus 6...then went prawning with parents....



i wont want to say much..i guess it will make you feel worse..all i want to say is that..
i missed quite alot of things in the past..

1. i miss you hugging me every possible moment you had
2. i miss you saying I LOVE YOU
3. i miss you taking advantage to kiss me when i am asleep
4. i miss the times when you started to play with me inmstead of me starting being childish and play with you..

there are many more.....

well...time to revive my blogs...
ok...lets start abt holidays..=.=...

oh well...was being asked to work for so long..
but nah...i wont be free starting frm nxt week..
12,13,14 nov...RSAF ATTACHMENT...
17,18,19 nov..ANNUAL CAMP..=.=...
20-21 nov...SLC training camp...
after that...
1-5 dec....OBS...=.=....
lastly...15 dec to 21 dec...HK trip...
haix...
busy like crazy..then have to keep going to sch for meetings meetings and meetings...
every meeting is like frm 1.30-5?..or 12-5?..zzzz....
and i dun even have time to see you for the next few weeks..
haix...
really hope i can see you more this holidays..
coz...
when the new years starts...
time to prepare for O level's....
and i dun think your parents will allow us to meet as usual anymore...


and dun worry my love..
all your qns...
all your imaginations...
wont come true...
its the truth which you are looking at now..

which is me...



ARGH!!!!...SHIT!!!..I HAVEN DO ALL MY HW YET!!...=.=