SUNDAY..
woke up as early as 8am man..
just cant go to sleep..
nvm..
todae was my grandma's b'dae..
nvm..thats in the evening..
before that it was tuition..

before that also..
i met esmond as he want my revision paper..
then photocopied and stuffs..
he ACTUALLY foloed me to qien's house..
lol..
managed to shake him off..
then during tuition..
i was EMO-ing eh?..
seriously..
i was feeling so down..
coz i know that we for sure..
cant go out..
so i was thinking if or whether to let you go home
or we still carry on our plan..
lastly..
i decided to make the selfish decision
and let you go home..=)

although i made that desicion..
i dun feel good at all..
i was wondering why must it always happened to me?..
why must ppl bring my hopes so high
and in the end..
disappoint me..
i was so sad that i wished i could hide in a corner to cry..
but then..
i went to jonathan's house to teach him A maths..
yea he is a fast learner..
so we had lunch and then games later on..

later it was my grandma's b'dae celebration!...
lol..
ate like crazy..
laugh like crazy..
then.
my cousins, nieces and uncles had to kiss my grandma on the cheek
and had to be photographed..
man..i saw mine and i was like got 2 lips?..lol..
omg..


i know you really want to hang out with me..
but everytime we decided onto something..
someone or somebody has to come and foil up..
i will be that sad because i alr had plans of what to do..
to make you smile
to make you scared or even make you enjoy the day..
but however..
i still did not have the chance..
my hopes was so high ytd and
my hopes just crash down onto the ground so flatly..
i know it wasnt your fault..
but all these..
had alr hurt me very deeply
very deeply
very deeply...



but then..
i would cherish you because
you would still stand by me
love me
care for me
even if i had said anything wrong or anything..
after a long thought..
yea..
i should cherish you more than you cherish me..
i would never want to lose you..
but if you had to go..
i will still have to let go..

but now i only have 3 words for you..

I LOVE YOU